I didn’t know I was white trash, until an elementary teacher said I was. “Don’t spend a lot of time with Eddie,” she whispered to her associate helping me read, “… his parents work in a textile mill.”
It wasn’t her words that humiliated me, it was her venom-laced energy. She looked over the top of her cat-eye-glasses at my beet-red face making sure I understood that my place was under her highfaluting heel. Even in the second grade the message was clear to me. If your family lived in a trailer park, worked in a textile mill, drove a beat-up car, and the kids wore hand-me-down clothes – life is going to be hard.
To make matters worse, I was a psychic kid. I’d see ghosts, angels, and hear voices from the other side. I never told a soul about these experiences because my southern-Baptist-Bible-thumping Grandma said, being psychic was the work of the devil. And she would know. She was his wife. But, I digress.
In second grade, I didn’t know what being psychic meant. Nor did I understand my sensitivity to the energy I saw and felt around people, animals and the occasional rude teacher. Without knowing it at the time, I was being prepped by the Universe to understand how experiencing people’s thoughts and energy negatively or positively created their lives.
In my mid-twenties, after decades of being “put in my place” and believing I was worthless, I had a spiritual wake-up call. Through books, workshops, and honing my psychic abilities I understood that I, with the help of my pre-birth planning group had picked my poverty ridden childhood. The second I felt this understanding; the brightest light bulb inside me switched on, lighting my path for future endeavors.
CLEARING OUT OLD THOUGHTS
In that moment I realized a deep truth. I was enough. I always was. I was unique, worthy, and valuable. I had great purpose despite my broker-than-broke-ass-broke childhood and young adulthood.
Today, I am rich in intuition. I choose to work in harmony with my imagination and creative expression. Which is at the root of how we create our lives. It’s true. We use the purest essence of our nonphysical attributes to create a happily ever after – or not. As Bashar says, “Everything is energy and that’s all there is to it. Match the frequency of the reality you want and you cannot help but get that reality. It can be no other way. This is not philosophy. This is physics.”
As a result of my upbringing and spiritual education I learned that conversations about money (or lack thereof) often provoked emotional tsunamis of fear and worry. Not to mention shame. Most people are so caught up in having piles of money they’ve forgotten the real reason “as to why” they wanted the money to start with.
The real reason we want money is because we believe having it will finally bring us feelings of peace, relaxation and relief.
We falsely believe having money in our hands is what will give us that illusive peace of mind, but it doesn’t. Most people can’t feel relaxed about money, without first having the money. But that’s the rub, isn’t it? In order to manifest the monetary ease we want, we must learn to hold the energy of peace and relief inside of us first so the Universe can bring us the actual money next.
CREATING NEW PATTERNS
Did you know our thoughts are lifeless and soulless and that our feelings are emotional energies within us activating our thoughts? It’s true. Here’s a simple Law of Attraction formula for manifesting.
THOUGHTS + FEELINGS = REALITY
Good thoughts + good feelings = A good reality, conversely
Bad thoughts + bad feelings = A bad reality.
When we feel fearful about our lack of moolah, the moolah disappears. When we shift our fearful thoughts into pure feelings of appreciation, we attract money. When we keep our feelings elevated for any reason whatsoever, we attract prosperous outcomes, and often these outcomes arrive in miraculous ways. I know this for a fact. I’ve lived this experience hundreds of times.
Kelly Howell says, “No matter what your current beliefs are about money, you have the power to change your personal finances by shifting your thoughts about it.” Speaking of shifts, miracles are defined as a shift in perception, from fear to love. Beliefs about money are often fear based. Meaning, talk of money often activates convoluted, fear-based outcomes. Demonstrating once again, we don’t get the money we want; we only get the money we are vibrating.
It’s not as hard as you think to shift your prosperity consciousness from fear to love. You love freedom. You love relaxation and peace. You love joy and happiness and feeling secure. You love feeling light in your mind, your heart and your body – right? Each one of these hi-frequency adjectives “that you love to feel” are also the actual emotions you will experience when you have the paper money in your hand.
We understand prosperity is not about mountains of gold and silver. Prosperity isn’t about mansions or luxury cars. Prosperity is an emotional state, synonymous with inner peace and ease. It’s an unshakable knowing that all is well and has often been described as a heavenly emotion.
I like that because the word heaven means, “expanded consciousness.” Proving once again, the more we feel consistently relaxed, the more we build upon our personal Wealth Esteem which automatically facilitates monetary freedom.
CHOOSING ELEVATED FREQUENCIES
We often forget the most important aspect of the Law of Attraction. What is that you ask? That us clumps-of-flesh, are also expanded consciousness. We are divine spiritual beings with physical bodies. We are the best of both the physical and nonphysical worlds combined. 99.99.9% of what we are is the same invisible energy that creates worlds.
We are also stardust and the Universe is our invisible means of support. We are one with It. We are It. All we have to do is harmonize with this support in order to create continued ease. When we remember these simple facts and apply them minute by minute, hour by hour, and day by day we’ll steadily learn to have, hold, and maintain our prosperity consciousness.
Jack Canfield said, “By taking the time to stop and appreciate who you are and what you’ve achieved, and perhaps learned through a few mistakes, stumbles, and losses – you actually can enhance everything about you. Self-acknowledgment and appreciation are what give you the insights and awareness to move forward toward higher goals and accomplishments.”
Jack’s quote speaks to learning our lessons from a higher perspective so that we can move forward gracefully with continued shifts in consciousness. Personally, I love expanding my consciousness. It’s a good thing because I have more work to do on rebooting my old thoughts to new ones, my old patterns to better ones, and my present moment frequencies to frequencies that are way more productive.
As I finish this essay, my mind drifts back to the elementary school teacher that lit a fire under my ass. In grade school I was humiliated by her cutting words. I felt ashamed for being poor. Today it’s easy for me to stop and appreciate what I’ve learned through the highs and lows in life. And it’s easier to see past experiences through the lens of my heart. I know for a fact that working with the energy of appreciation has perfectly placed me where I am today, which is light years away from the sad, disconnected kid that grew up in a trailer park in the back woods of North Carolina, for which I am eternally grateful.
OWNING YOUR WEALTH ESTEEM™
More often than not, I live in a prosperous mindset with an enriched heart. I deliberately choose to look at, speak about and focus on life in an elevated manner. This alone brought me across the country from North Carolina to Los Angeles where I get to live the life of my dreams. I was literally born to be a Soul Intuitive and communicator about all things spiritual and paranormal.
In closing, just a loving reminder from my heart to yours. It doesn’t matter if your checking account is high or low. It doesn’t matter if you are rich or poor. It doesn’t matter what car you drive. And it doesn’t matter if you live in the projects, a trailer or a Malibu mansion – It. Doesn’t. Matter.
What does matter is that you cultivate your personal power through awareness. That you harmonize with your genuine purpose. It matters that you are kind to yourself and others, and that you send and receive sincere love. It matters that you absolutely walk in a vortex of authentic appreciation as often as you can. It matters that you relax and allow all of your pure, positive greatness to flow to you and through you as much as possible.
That my friend is what Wealth Esteem is. That is prosperity consciousness. That is the true meaning of being rich. And, on that note, remember to keep your thoughts, feelings and frequencies high, fast and pure so that you can Unlock the Universe Within.
With Appreciation Always,